So long

finished espresso

So long to yesterday, its merit remains

upon a white cloth a deep purple imprint has stained

So long my lost love, though your memories are fading

Ill cherish them long as I can without hating

So long to old friends, your actions brought lessons

which shape every day uncovering blessings

 

So long dear grandpa, a true legacy you left

your children and grandchildren are fighting their best

So long dear grandma, who was always most helpful

when no one else would scrape out the gravel

So long departed, I regret moving on

but to hold on too tightly only darkens the dawn

 

So long old worries, which now are called hangups

that prevent me from living right here and right now

So long ancient wounds which have chiseled my heart out

from the block it once was to the shape of a peanut

So long my youth, I will miss you the most

For the body Im living in pretends more than boasts

 

So long bad memories, which just misperceive

all of my life, you’ve been the worst thief

So long inner child, it has been good to know you

but the ideas you provided have been based on denial

So long old habits, its time that we part

that once you provided, now crushes my heart

 

So long old wounds, Ive paid more than my dues

I feel we can now part without forgetting my queues

So long old home, that served well to grow up in

but the one I have now, needs all my attention

Goodbye cruel world, Im leaving you now

I heading to wonderland to see about a girl.

Denial – Shame – Persecution – Victim – a poem

Best Sandwich Ever

Shame & Denial, Tempt Persecution.

Search and destroy

Search and rescue

Formidable confusion…

 

Kindness mistaken, True Love forsaken

Quickens to twisted and dark conversation

With Perception askew, direction untrue

The path that once was, is covered from view.

 

Behold the giver, in now different light

ill received, misconceived, aggressive to fight.

Anger and rage, control binds the victim

motivates the wicked, to ruin gods kingdom.

 

Decayed palace walls, now cracked and bare

draw anyone with knowledge of how to repair

to their own morbid demise and utter despair

crying “life isn’t fair” “Oh Life isn’t fair.”

 

Craving instant relief, for all who partake

Reprisal, en repose, a well deserved break

Lets the body feel happiness, While the heart starts to ache

accelerating faster the bodies’ decay.

 

Crashing to an end, a hopeful chapter can begin

yet midway through writing, realization sets in.

This its just the same story and nobody wins.

again and again and again and again….

I PRAY THEE, BREAK THE CYCLE

GET OUT WHILE YOU CAN

FOR A LIFE OF DENIAL

AINT WORTH A DAMN!

50 Free ways to improve joy and lower stress – by Jeremiah Williams

Photo of Jeremiah Williams Smilling
Taken march 20th, 2013 while at Northampton Community College Photography Class led by Ryan Hulvat

Here you will find 50 ways to increase joy in your life and lower stress. If you read just one you will begin to notice an immediate difference. It may not be easy to get through all of these in one sitting so feel free to check back as many times as you need. This list will be up here until the end of the internet and will far surpass my lifetimes and span many generations until their is no longer a desire of the human race to want to feel better. When we have evolved into stress free lives and all have found peace, I only ask that this list is destroyed. This should not be read by anyone under 13 years of age.

  1. Expect to be lied to, people are out for themselves. They don’t give a crap about your desires. However; if you expose your true desires to anyone they may use that information to control you to further their own fantasies.
  2. Expect to be cheated on, perhaps then you won’t trust somebody with your girlfriend /boyfriend / husband / wife.
  3. Expect to be wronged and don’t take it personal, you will intentionally and unintentionally wrong many people throughout your own life.
  4. Expect challenges, don’t take offense to things done harmfully to you. They are actually people trying to help you become better people than they could ever be. Expect to be wrong often. After all, who’s wrong and who’s right is merely up to the individual and they are subject to gusts of wind and rain just like you
  5. Expect to become physically ill, we are not offered healthy food in our grocery stores, nor are our doctors expected to heal us. They are expected to make money.
  6. The more you have, the more you have to lose. The less you have, the less you have to lose.
  7. Expect life to be unfair, but open up your mouth when your indubitably wronged.
  8. Expect to be betrayed, even after you have learned your lesson..
  9. Expect to be stolen from, unless you have 1000 pairs of eyes, go ahead try to steal something from a fly, its impossible
  10. Expect to keep moving, if you become stagnant you will soon become ill
  11. Expect to be corrected, there are many among us who pride themselves in fault finding. It makes them feel better about the shit life that they have
  12. Expect to be unfulfilled because once you get what you want you no longer want it, and will immediately want something different
  13. Have many acquaintances, but few friends. DO NOT CONFUSE THE TWO!
  14. Expect to be a follower, before anybody even considers letting you lead
  15. Expect to be directed, controlled, and abused by people who have more than you. You will one day have more then someone else, and you can then find balance again.
  16. Expect to be lost much and found rarely. This is why when the words lost and found are connected together, it seems like some stranger or organization has your needs in their best interest, creating a sense of trust that is misguided.
  17. Expect great confusion, and know that everyone is also just as confused as you are. The only difference between you and them is that they have learned how to speak in a low confident tone which only makes them seem like they are not confuse.
  18. Let go of all thats past, this way we approach our future with a clean slate.
  19. Don’t hold too many grudges, they will poison your tongue
  20. Learn a creative outlet. It will lower your stress level.
  21. Allow people to become who they want to be, even its unbefitting in your eyes.
  22. Don’t believe anything people say. They are just trying to act out their own fantasies. After all aren’t we all.
  23. Expect everything to be taken from you, when you die you take nothing.
  24. Expect the sun will come up, everyday. Don’t worry yourself about impossibilities. Worry about possibilities. If that is impossible then tell people just that after they suggest you don’t worry.
  25. Expect tomorrow will be a completely different day. A mind that thinks things are always the same is looking inward, not outward.
  26. Some things Never change, but some things ALWAYS do.
  27. Stop comparing everything to your own past, therefore you can face your future with a positive attitude. It’s the only shot we have at minimizing stress.
  28. Nothing will ever make any real sense. There is a disconnect between what we decide, think, do, and endure which prevents us from ever knowing the whole truth.
  29. Math will always add up to one correct answer, even if that answer is that there is no answer.
  30. Never be creative with numbers or you will soon be out of a job.
  31. Expect to be alone, even the moments when it seems our lives seem full of love, those around you are temporarily hiding their ever growing conditions on that love.
  32. Accept gifts from no one, the only gift you get for nothing is a hidden expectation that can never be fulfilled, which leads to unfounded guilt.
  33. Always be kind and over-produce what people ask of you, this way, even the most evil of humans will never have a good reason to hurt you or your family.
  34. When embarrassed say these magic words out loud : “ I am embarrassed”
  35. When you are sad say these magic words out loud : “I am sad”
  36. When you are angry at somebody as you will eventually become, say these magic words “That’s too bad” then go for a walk. They will get it.
  37. Never lay your hands on anyone out of anger, it will leave a permanent scar on that persons life. It never fully heals.
  38. When you are lonely : do absolutely nothing. Simply wait and your situation will change quickly. If you choose to end your loneliness yourself, it will just prolong it.
  39. When in new situations, err on the side of caution. Even though the situation seems similar to the past, it isn’t.
  40. Never be the loudest person in the room because if you make a faux pas you will instantly lose many relationships you have worked hard and long to obtain.
  41. Own as little things as possible, so it’s easy when you want to move.
  42. Moving is NEVER fun.
  43. When you want to do something: first complete your task at hand, then, Just Do It!
  44. Wait twice as lone for only those that would wait at least half as long for you.
  45. Accept that we are not free. We are all bound to each other in unimaginable ways.
  46. Accept that life is long, but time is short.
  47. Have fun while your young: until 30 the latest.
  48. When your 40, do whatever you want because it’s your turn, and nobody actually expected you to live that long, especially you.
  49. If you have lived until you’re fifties there is little you can learn or do differently, since by now, life is mostly habitual. Don’t bother trying to change or grow up, the name of the game now is your health and thats that.
  50. This list incomplete and requires that YOU finish it.

 

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I hope that you get the most enjoyment out of your life, everyone

This is all I have learned so far. By now means is this a comprehensive or complete list. There are as many ways to be happy as their are people alive. This is just an attempt to save anyone from trouble that has already been researched so you may make new mistakes that we can all learn from, and as a race improve our overall quality of life, in the entire world.

 

A mistake shared is one less mistake you have made today.